My Name

I’ve shown
Reluctance to walk around this circle I’ve been circling
I’ve known
There was something wrong with me but didn’t want to let it in
And you think
There might be an answer to the question that I represent

I’ve found
I can’t stand the things most down-to-earthen people usually love
I’ve bound
Myself to nothing but the wind and rain and thunderclouds above
And you think
The allure of my surroundings could possibly serve to be enough

I stop dead in my tracks sometimes
And look up to the sky
Try to let all my guilt unwind
And then walk on by
I wish my days could be rehearsed
Although I’m used to surprise
I’d love a life lived in reverse
Without the elegant lies

Don’t hate me as much as I do
Though reasons to cry out beside you
I’m not even sure you really know my name
I don’t even know my name

I’ve felt
Like everything I say is a substitute for important things
I’ve dealt
With unrequited friendship love and undeserved offerings
And you think
A stupid little clothes iron can attempt to work out all the kinks

I’ve spent
Sufficient time mis-analyzing every other challenge I face
I’ve lent
Out too much information bout myself to even try to retrace
And you think
That guilt’s some kind of antidote for knowing my place

I stop dead in my tracks sometimes
And look up to the sky
Try to let all my guilt unwind
And then walk on by
I wish my days could be rehearsed
Although I’m used to surprise
I’d love a life lived in reverse
Without the elegant lies

Don’t hate me as much as I do
Though reasons to cry out beside you
I’m not even sure you really know my name
I don’t even know my name